Grieving the Loss of My Nannie. One Day at a Time.

Dealing with a major loss is never easy. Change is hard. Especially when kids are involved. Losing our nannie for the summer is no exception. I'm not used to taking care of these kids. And this house. I just wasn't prepared for this. I miss walking into a spotless home. I miss coming home to home cooked meals. I miss coming home to all of the laundry folded. The last ten days of the school year were glorious. I had to hire someone to watch these kids for real. They were long…

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Mother’s Day Really Sucks When Your Mom is Dead

Mother’s Day is one of the happiest days of the year. The weather is usually gorgeous. Everyone gets up early to spend the day with mom. Beautiful flowers are purchased. Perhaps a nice brunch to really show how much you care. An appropriate champagne toast. It’s just a great day to spend with the person you love most in life. The person responsible for giving you life. Unless, of course, she’s dead. Celebrating Mother’s Day without a mom is not as fun as it sounds. When I had a mom,…

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My Dead Mom Sent Me a Sign From the Afterlife

I have been thinking a lot about my mom lately. There are just so many questions I wish I could ask her. So many things I just don't know about her as a woman. I only knew her as a mom. And that part makes me sad. Did she ever get depressed? (Because I can't remember a time she seemed to be.) Did she ever find motherhood over (or under) whelming? (She must have, right?) What did she worry about when we were kids that she wishes she wouldn't have?…

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I Have Finally Found the True Meaning in Mother’s Day. Me.

A few weeks ago I got an invitation to attend a Mother's Day Tea and Fashion Show at my daughter's school. My initial thought was I can't go because I have to work. I told my five year-old this. She was upset. Like all my kids are when they ask me to do something and I say I can't. But I always explain that I work to make the money to buy the toys and they're usually okay with this. But this time was different. I really don't know what…

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